Good vibrations

September 18, 2011

Memories eh, what would we do without them…………  happy, sad, good, bad, this is what they are, part of our journey, our story that brings us to the here and now, our life as it is today.    However, if we haven’t let the more niggling ones die, we can travel back to these times, these feelings in an instant, reliving the emotions, feelings of that time right now in the present.  An adult being, responding like a child,   feeling and behaving as if we are that child with all the fear, anxiety and insecurity,  pushing our energies “vibrations” way of balance and sometimes making important decisions from this unreal place.

A friend sent em this video yesterday in response to my call for sending good vibes over to me, I was feeling rather overwhelmed with issues that had arisen, not knowing which way to turn, nobody could give me the answers, this I had to find out for myself, journey and use my intuition to guide me to what is right.  But it was so nice to know I had friends holding a good space for me, and this “connection” , heart to heart is fundamental to me in my wellbeing.

The vidieo footage did send me right back to 1966, I was 17 and had just become a mother.  Bitter sweet memories for me, guess for  a moment though I did become that 17 year old, with lots of confused feelings, joy and deep sadness but instantly I knew, that although part of my journey,  it is not with me today, I could honour the teenager in me, and know that I wouldnt be who I am today without that experience, I can see it, accept it and move and not be drawn back to those harrowing times and relive it today.  There is no need, like all things, they have their time and space, but we come to a time when they no longer serve us and we need to let them go, let them die and allow space for new seeds to be nurtered and spring forth into full blossom

Tomorrow I start to grow a seed that has been laying dormant, I am starting to train as a transpersonal art therapist, so looking forward to all the gifts that are coming my way !! and will in time share many others.



shadows...... let them be your gifts

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.


The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

~ Rumi ~


At the start of my shamanic journey this ancient poem was sent to me by one of my teachers.  At the time of reading it I was struggling big time and didn’t grasp its meaning or relevance fully.  However, today I heard the poem again being read out on a shamanic audio podcast, only this time I  heard the poem with very different ears.  Its  message crystal clear.    Learning to embrace the dark side, our shadows, ”the visitors to the guest house” is what sets us free.  These “guests” come bearing gifts,  if we can unwrap them and learn from them, we can begin to connect to our true self.  Allow our light to shine clear and bright and transform the quality of our energetic vibrations to a much higher level


I want to talk about the shadow, the dark side, the part of us we keep well hidden, the part we don’t want anyone to know about, the part we internalized long ago when as a child we were humiliated, chastised or shamed.  We became detached, we split off, and lost our connection with our true self. 


 For some people the shadow pieces can remain all their lives, its too painful to “go there” and they are in total denial that there is any problem at all. For others there becomes a time when they start to see the pieces and embrace them, these are two different ends of the spectrum, but reaching the latter releases us from everything that holds us back and stops us from reaching our souls purpose in this life.


The shadow in denial never stays dormant forever, some way, somehow the shadows will surface in ways that can be totally self destructive.  It can be the beautifully mannered person always polite and sweet who ends up violently attacking their partner, the pillar of the community ends up stealing the community fund, the priest who took his vows of celibacy is caught having sex with a parishioner.  The pleasant well mannered bank clerk defrauds the bank of a lot of money and is sent to prison etc, etc.   In addition the shadow causes blocks in our energy bodies, resulting in physical manifestations, joint pains and headaches to auto immune diseases, back problems and more serious terminal illnesses and so on.  (Read Louise Hay’s HEAL YOUR BODY


First we have to recognize the shadows, some we can readily identify, some are well hidden.  A sure way of finding out some pieces to work with is to think of someone in your life who seems to “push all your buttons”, then write a list of all things that really annoy you about them.  This will probably be very easy………..  once listed read them out to yourself and know that each item  you wrote is in fact one of YOUR shadows


As hard as it might be to accept these are all the pieces that you have been trying to hold down unseen all your life. It helps to see them as gifts to unwrap, see how a particular quality may have helped you in your life.  Another way of finding shadow pieces is to list the qualities that you would most like to remembered for, then write down the opposite quality, find a word that really resonates, this latter one is your shadow.  For a better understanding of shadow work I thouroughly recommend THE DARD SIDE OF THE LIGHT CHASERS by Debiie Ford